Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in Christ with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places, even as he chose us in him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and blameless before him. In love he predestined us for adoption as sons through Jesus Christ, according to the purpose of his will, to the praise of his glorious grace, with which he has blessed us in the Beloved.
(Ephesians 1:3-6, ESV)
This is some HEAVY stuff...Heavy, weighty, good, immovable and TRUE stuff. I probably should not have chosen all three verses since any one of them contains worlds of truth too astounding and vast for anyone to take in, in one sitting. I couldn't help myself. It's all soooo good! I wanted to say 'yummy', but not sure if you would understand, lol.
Ok, true story:
Some years back soon after Jesus got a hold of me, I went through an identity crisis. I had not grown up in church or a truly godly family and I was trying to fit into what I read, heard and saw at that point. Add to that all my learning about things called 'gifts' and 'callings' and the knowledge that God has a plan for my life. Well, I was just a mess. Trying so hard to 'be' and make my place in the church (I had not even found one to attend yet) without really understanding what He had already done for me and what He thought of me.
One night I had a dream of putting on these huge eye-glasses (skipping details)...and later that day as I was talking to some revelatory-gifted women I used to meet via an online ministry chat, one of them said to me: "You are having an identity crisis. I see you wearing huge glasses, and you are asking God, 'Who am I?' ' Who am I to You?' God wants to give you vision...(skip details).
Well, I was inspired by the Holy Spirit to start to read Ephesians. I read this book out loud on my bed every night for about three weeks. On nights when I didn't get to reading the entire book, I read at least Chapters One to Chapter Three.
After the first night or two, I was inspired to do something even more radical (I didn't know this was something people actually did at this time in my unchurched life) - I substituted every 'we', 'us', 'you', 'our' and so on with a personal pronoun to refer to myself. And so I read, night after night, after night.
At the end of those three weeks, something was different about me and I have never been the same from that day till now. My heart grasped something about the love of God as my Father that I'd never received before. I knew
who I was,
Whose I was,
why I was; that I was 'loved', 'accepted' and a whole lot of other verbs like that applied! And I also then realized that God took great pleasure in me. He knew all about me and was not disappointed by His purchase - and He was listening to me. My prayers were exciting for the first time.
A real, living relationship had begun.